i've never known a love like yours
nor thought it could be true
but everytime i kiss your lips
i feel what love can do
with hair like silk
and lips so tender
each moment with you
makes my heart surrender
i couldn't live , i couldn't breathe
without you by my side
never will i let you go , my love will never hide
and in my heart you will always be
from now until forever
no matter what , no matter where
we will always be together..

Never regret anything because at some point i wanted it.

why the fuck you still keep telling me lie?
i did ask you before i accept you..
you lied me once.. and now i finally found out that you are lying to me all the way since the first day you meet me . you never stopped cheating on me and i don't know why you have to do that. you told me the problem between carmen and anjeal , you told me that having two girl friends are not fun but suffer . i trusted you. i trusted every word you said even though you'd lied to me numerous times. Do you think its possible to forgive someone who has lied to you and betrayed your trust?i could forgive once, maybe twice, but it's not going to ever change..
Please don't blame yourself for any of the stupid shit that I choose to do. None of this is your fault. I'm the one who makes these bad decisions so I'm the one who pays the consequences.I never regretted telling you I liked you, I only regretted never hearing what you really thought of me and never doubt on your words.

its been so long since i last updated my blog. and guess what? i have been going through a lot. my life is absolutely different from last time. lately, i have been confused about everything.. i keep asking myself am i doing the right thing? why am i still doing this..? i spent 3 years to forget someone and i finally did it. but now seems like i am repeating the history again... i have been to penang on last Friday and i don't know why..i don't find any point going over there and i cant feel any happiness as well. a year ago , i was so crazy over it. i spent almost every precious holidays in penang and i thought that's worth. but now , i regret for everything i have done.. you never found out how much i tried and cried. all of the sadness you kept me blind. i was so silly.. i keep thinking that times will never change and things will always be the same. deep in my heart I'm concealing things that i am longing to say. every time we meet, we look at each other and just wondering what the other is thinking but we never say a thing. i wonder, have you ever doubt on me? i don't know and i will never know the answer..because we will never talk to each other for more than three sentences in a day. even when we are doing things together , we don't talk much. and i want you to know why dint i talk much , is because i scared to confess what I'm feeling will frightened you. i just don't know where and how to start a conversation with you anymore...i have no idea why cant we just be friend like the olden days when we just knew each other? i wonder why you changed so much..you are now a stranger to me. i know i must be strong and carry on, because i know i don't belong. my sis,leng always be by my side and accompany me to go wherever i wanted to. she never ask me to stop loving you because she knows that I'm crazy in love with you and i will not let go so easily. but i actually knew that we both will never be together so i keep building the walls round my heart , but then i see you and it falls apart.. there is a part of me wont let you go keep saying yes when my minds saying no.. boy the way you do me is a damn crime and i want you to regret what you have done to me all these years. i wish you would know i no longer in love with you. i deserve a better one..at least , someone would care and love.