just a simple apology is better than compensation

whats the main point of hanging out? have fun?

i dont really know what did you say behind me lo.

i did enjoy going out with you & your friend that so called as bro.

and please , i will never go out with him without your knowing or accompaniment

you both have a quarrel with ' her ' , does not related to me at all right.

dont ever thinks bad about me.. i dont know whats going on between you both.

i'm not siding anyone of you..

i dont wanna messed up with you guys, i wanna be friends.. just like this.

stop quarreling , and make things clear.

i wonder why it's so difficult for you guys to apologize ?

saturday night

awww , feel like hanging out when the sky is turning to dark..

just have a chat with cherries about tonight's plan

and we decided to hang tonight with her friend !

i know i shouldn't hang so often since school is reopen soon.

but but but , I'm really sad at night :(

my mind is keep thinking of you

btw mom , i hope you know that i'm old enough to take care myself now.

i wont do something that silly , trust me .

p/s :

i wonder have i ever crossed your mind ?

pissed off

ignore your msg does not mean i'm pissed at you..

now you're really pissed me off..

can't you try to be mature?

even a little bit will do.

dont ever talk about me in front of my friends.

if you really want to know anything , ask me face to face please.

you dont understand me yet. zzz

you're the best one of the best ones

i know he has participated in a competition of snooker since yesterday ,

i simply texted him and wished him good luck :)

Today , my friend called me and told me that he won the competition , i wish to congratulation him. but i was not dare to do action , i'm coward , i dont even dare to drop him a little text asking him how was the match . i'm so chicken-hearted :(

anyway , just now i wished him good luck again !

i guess he replied me when the match was finish , he told me that his opponent was quite strong.

no matter what he is still the champion :) it means he is much stronger.

stronger than i thought ..

i'm so glad to hear that , and i'm so proud of him.

nice one boy :) add more effort , i'm always believe in you

i've been waiting for 3years & i'm still waiting ..

i used to chat with a boy til midnight when i was only 14 years old

although our distance is far , we will always informing each other.. no matter what..

i told him every single thing of myself and i know almost everything of him too.

by that time , he loves one of his schoolmate.

and i'm always cheering him up.. telling him everything will be fine soon.

day by day.. i'm falling for him..

i realised he is such a good boy & this is the type of boy i like exactly...

he is faithful , caring & lovely..

i still remember one night..

when we were chatting happily as always ... he suddenly asked me a question ' do you love me? '

and i answered him ' yes ' unhesitatingly

after that day , we still chatting as usual ..

until... when his exam is around the corner..

we stopped to chat so often ...

and i'm afraid to text him even when he is on my mind..

perhaps , i'm shy..

and i'm afraid that i'm disturbing him.. because he told me once , 24hours per day is not enough for him.. thats why i dint text him since that month :(

although i dint text or call him , he is always in my heart , my mind..

i dont wanna forget him , maybe i cant do it.

whenever the school holiday is coming , i'll plan to go to penang certainly ...

just for a meet.. thats more than enough...

last year's school holiday , i went to penang with 2 girl friends of mine.

and one of the girl i bring was also falling for him..

she told me something before we go to clubbing.

she asked me not to chase him & she wanted to challenge with me .

yeah , she is one of my best friend... i dont feel like losing anyone of them...

and i believe in him..

i trust him...

i keep on telling myself , he will never fall for her.

she is hopeless .

but when things turn out , its hurting me badly..

he treats her damn good , and they both kissed .

he dint care for me at all.. he knew i love him.. yet he is still doing these in front of me.

they both were so close to each other like no body's business ...

and i cried at the last night after clubbing.. i went to the seaside with his friend..

we both chatted for awhile and my best friend came to me.

she cheered me up , and asked me to give up ...

i was like... wtf? how could i give up to him ? i love him so deeply , how am i going to give up? i've got no idea at the moment.

after that , we headed back to batu ferringi..

the girl asked me whats happening? and i told her nothing .

when he knows i cried for him , he text me... he apologized ... he keep on telling me sorry for doing these and that...

but it does not helps at all... i'm still hurt...

until now , i'm 17years old...

he is still the only one i love , i care , i miss and i need the most...

yet i'm not his only one... i'm not his cup of tea...

i know i should let go and move on..

i've tried ... but it failed .

its so difficult to put down...

i'm tired.... sigh... nothing could describe my feeling right now...